A-G-O-N-Y

[jabber_moose]

 Yes, its small, but that is what the scope of my life is right now. Small. Teeny. Insignificant. Tonight's episode left my heart in all sorts of gasp and melting. But what came next...the monitor of my heart  went BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP.

And there were no ducklings with de-fibs....or scruffy blue eyed docs yelling at me not to die.....or 'boyishly handsome' oncologists on hand....

I...i...i can't...i just...can't....